Wow. Feels so weird coming back on here to write an update. I cannot believe it’s been over 4 years since my diagnosis. But God is good. And here we are.
First, I would like to let you guys know that all of my follow ups have gone really well. Bloodwork has been great and I am finally feeling more like myself than ever before.
The only downside is that I have a monthly zoladex shot that is NOT fun. It’s huge. Just google what it looks like and you will see one of the reasons I’ve decided to take a step in my life to stop them. My cancer was extremely hormone related. So for 4 years I have suppressed my ovaries every single month and I take a hormone blocker (Letrozol) daily. To get my monthly shot, I have to go into the same treatment room area where I use to sit and get chemo. I see amazing people going through cancer and I pray for them each time I’m waiting on my shot. To say it doesn’t give me a little ptsd would be a lie. Sometimes the nurses try to get me to go sit in the chemo chair after vitals and I have to tell them I’m not getting chemo. But even that little sentence “pick your chair” makes my heart sink.
So… after MUCH thought, prayer, convos with my husband, family, friends, and God, I have decided to have a hysterectomy. I will never carry a child. It’s not safe for me to carry given hormones are extremely heightened during pregnancy. Yes it is a little emotional but to be completely honest, I’m so happy with my decision. I was able to cancel the rest of my shots coming up. I will now only see my oncologist twice a year as opposed to going in that building 12 times a year. I literally cried getting off the phone after cancelling my shots.
So that is the big update. I will be having surgery September 9th. They will be doing a full hysterectomy surgery. So please keep me in your prayers. I’m so happy to be taking this step but also nervous as heck.
My hubby is sleeping beside me right now (yes at 6pm haha) and I just want to give him a big ole hug. He has been amazing and has assured me the 1000 times I’ve asked him, “are you sure you’re ok with this?”. I’m a lucky lady.
Unfortunately, life after cancer isn’t always easy. It’s hard. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally… Hug those you love. Make that phone call to someone if you have them on your mind. And please also keep my friends Lesly and Amanda in your prayers. I feel silly even writing this blog when I know the things they, and others, face daily are 1000 times harder than a hysterectomy. I love you ladies with all my heart.
So… until next time. I’ll leave you with this.