Hi! It’s me! I know I’ve been a little quiet on here lately, but I was just taking time off to enjoy my month off from surgeries and treatment. I do have some updates for you guys!
I’ll start where I left off last time. My implant surgery went SO well. I was truly amazed at how fast I healed from surgery. I saw my plastic surgeon last week and got the all clear. He also told me that if during radiation therapy, there are any changes to the implant that we can fix them. Which is such great news!
Last week I also had my markings for radiation. I met with my radiation oncologist and she made me feel so comfortable with what is about to come. She has what is called a breath hold technique that I will be doing. Since my cancer was in my left breast, they are having me hold my breath during radiation so that it expands my chest, which will make it easier for them to radiate where they need to, and to protect my heart and lungs from unnecessary radiation.
I will be having my first radiation treatment on Wednesday. I have a overwhelming calmness about the whole thing. I’m just ready to get this step over with and heal. The finish line is finally in sight.
I do want to address something. Everyone thinks I’ve been so positive during this whole year of craziness. That’s not always true. I have had my moments, and there were even a couple days a few weeks ago I could barely breathe. The thoughts of reoccurrence made me sick to my stomach. I couldn’t think of anything else. I know that it’s a possibility that I may have to deal with this again. I am trying to stay as positive as possible but want to address that it’s normal to have these fears. My oncology nurse warned me about these fears on my last day of chemo. It’s like during your treatment you are so focused on that you aren’t thinking about reoccurrence. But my last day of treatment was September 5th. I’ve had 2 months of doing nothing to prevent cancer and it started freaking me out. I tried a meditation app called calm. It has been a Godsend. I am now able to switch my focus when I start having those fears.
I will say cancer has taught me to enjoy every single moment. I don’t want to waste a minute of a day being unhappy. Life is literally too short.
I love you guys!!! I’ll leave you with some pictures over the last month. The first being the amazing support I had at the Making Strides walk. Truly blessed.